A State of Mind

 I sat down today to write this blog, I have been falling behind in blogging and I have quite a few I need to do, St. Patrick’s day, trip to Everett/Seattle, Wenatchee… Anyways, I will get to those tomorrow. But today I am in a state of mind that is very somber and just here. For reasons, that I am keeping to myself today. Anyways here I sit, I really want to write, I really want to accomplish something, yet nothing is there – nothing is coming out – NOTHING… 

I am a quote person, if you know me even just a little, I live by quotes – I don’t always practice them, I wish I did, but I always reflect on them – just looking in my office today this is what I see – “You Play the way you Practice”  so true, that ones there because the boys come in my office quite a bit and I though it was appropriate.

You can walk all over my house and find them, from “Approach Cooking and Love with reckless abandon” to “What if the hokey pokey really is what it’s all about?” Quotes make you think, they can make and change a State of Mind… They are words that are true to someone.

Looking around my office, trying to find something to lighten my mood I find not only quotes, but cards and things left for me, I am a pretty understated person. My job in life has always been to help others, whether it’s my actual job, like it is now, or just the way I am, I help with as much volunteer stuff I can at Austin’s school, or his hockey team or my friends causes, that’s what I do that who I am – I help others…

Here is peek into whats on my bulletin board in my office right now – Pics of Aust playing hockey and LAX. Pics of a combined birthday dinner for Jill, R and me! Ian practicing on the outdoor rink in Enterprise Oregon.  The heart Aust made me for Valentines day. One of his modeling pics when he was 3. Notes from C.J. and Miss and Shae. Notes from flowers from the awesome parents I have – including my actual parents – but also from the boys parents and the owner of the team. One from Jill just because, sometimes I look at that one and laugh, it reads “Sometimes I wonder if you are even human, you are such a strong person.” I laugh because it’s just what I do – it never occurs to me that I shouldnt do as much or take on as much as I do… A card from the necklace Katie bought me that says – Kindness and Compassion – these are the gifts you share with the world. I never think like this… EVER… It’s just who I am and what I do…

Then there are the actual quotes – and today is a day that I have read them all about 5 times…

THIS IS YOUR LIFE – LIVE IT SIMPLY – DO WHAT YOU LOVE AND DO IT OFTEN – IF YOU DON’T LIKE SOMETHING, CHANGE IT – IF YOU ARE LOOKING FOR THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE STOP, THEY WILL WAITING FOR YOU WHEN YOU START DOING THINGS YOU LOVE. STOP OVER ANALYZING – TRAVEL OFTEN – GETTING LOST WILL HELP YOU FIND YOURSELF – SOME OPPORTUNITIES ONLY COME ONE SO SEIZE THEM – START CREATING – LIFE IS SHORT – LIVE YOUR DREAM

I WILL NOT LIVE AN UNLIVED LIFE – I WILL NOT LIVE IN FEAR OF FALLING – I WILL CHOOSE TO INHABIT MY DAYS, TO ALLOW MY LIVING TO OPEN ME – I WILL CHOOSE TO BE LESS AFRAID AND MORE ACCESSIBLE – I WILL CHOOSE TO RISK MY SIGNIFICANCE, TO LIVE SUCH A LIFE I CAN BE PROUD OF

HAVE LOTS OF FUN – LIFT A FINGER – DO SOMETHING FOR SOMEONE ELSE – CHEER YOUR FRIENDS ON – CHEER YOURSELF UP – CELEBRATE AT MUCH AS POSSIBLE – ENJOY EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW – IT’S OK TO WANT MORE AND DO MORE, BUT BE PRESENT WITH WHERE YOU ARE AND WHO YOU ARE WITH RIGHT NOW – DONT’ RUSH THE SITUATION, EVEN IF IT’S BAD – MOVE ON WHEN YOU CAN, DON’T SETTLE – TRY EVERYTHING YOU CAN AND GET OVER EVERYTHING HOLDING YOU BACK

There are 2 hockey ones I won’t bore you with, they are more towards be a hockey player – or hockey players mom!!!

But then there is this one – this one thing I live by, or at least attempt to live by everyday – some days are easier than others… Some days I can live by this – my mantra so easily and then there are days, it just goes out the window when I first wake up… it’s a day-to-day experience and one I am so thankful I was shown how to live it by one of the most awesomest people in my life. She is nothing like me and then again she is everything like me – I know she is there to be my sounding board, to give me the advice I need to hear, not the one I want to hear, I think it’s cause she is older and wiser than me (by 12 days!!!) She is my free-spirited fun-loving hippy best friend and she taught me what it means to LIVE ALOHA. Here is the breakdown –

Aloha is the coordination of mind and heart… It’s within the individual… It brings you down to earth… It brings you down to yourself… You must think and emote good feelings to others.

AKAHAI – KINDNESS expressed with TENDERNESS

LOKAHI – UNITY expressed with HARMONY

‘OLU ‘OLY – AGREEABLE expressed with PLEASANTNESS

HA’AHA’A – HUMILITY expressed with MODESTY

AHONUI – PATIENCE expressed with PERSEVERANCE

My awesome friend was shown this way of living from  a great person, I wish I could have known. Living Aloha is not to be kept to ones self, it is to be passed on!!!

I love this way of thinking so much, it was my last tattoo last summer! It is a daily reminder of what I need to do to make my life better and everyone around me better also.

Today, I had a talk with someone very insightful and this is what she said –

“I think you are such an amazing friend and person, but sometimes you forget to be that to YOURSeLF! You deserve to have Angel as your BFF too!!! 

 I will be honest, it’s easy to live aloha when the sun is Shining, and with others… It sounds like you need some of your own love. Others should be wrapping you in it as well, but if they don’t or can’t or won’t, wrap yourself. ”

I love her and she is one of the best things that could have happened in my life – Hockey has enriched my life in so many ways – not just being the proud mom of a talented player!

As I write this, I want to delete it and start over on this blog – because I sound like I am being boastful and I’m not that way… It’s about everyone before it’s about me… I need to take some advice from my very honest dear friend and look at that tattoo on my ankle that is there for a reason and start LIVING ALOHA…

DISCLAIMER – I do have a very close group of people in my life that are like my sisters, I am not meaning the above comments to say that one friend is better than the others, it just happened that today I leaned on the one I knew would have the answer I needed.  That’s the thing  about the people I have surrounded and trusted into my life, they all hold a specific role and that I can always count on!!! Love each of you equally.

An everyday reminder of the way I want to live my life.

A

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One thought on “A State of Mind

  1. I’m lucky to have a best friend that inspires me 🙂 Thank you for being you, and for being such a strong swimmer, and for helping me to dog paddle.

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