One of my favorite songs right now is Katy Perry’s “Firework”. I love every lyric in this song. Almost daily – on my way to work, it comes on my XM and I turn it up to as we call it in our house “Mommy Volume” and sing to the entire song at the top of my lungs. It makes me feel good about starting the day and that I need to realize that I am a “FIREWORK”
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper-thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there’s still a chance for you
Cause there’s a spark in you
It takes a lot of COURAGE everyday to remember that I am a FIREWORK and some days are harder than others. Heck some days I am just a sparkler and other days I am a dud.
You don’t have to feel like a waste of space
You’re original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you’re reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it’s time, you’ll know
I am learning to let go of being a perfectionist – it’s really hard if you wanna know the truth. I am the one that has to finish something when I start it right now – no sleep, nothing else until it’s done. I am letting go of that, last night was a step for me. We emptied out Austin’s old room, since he has moved to Kopi’s room. I am going to put all my scrapbook stuff in there, YAY ME! Anyways, we started moving stuff in there last night and at about 11pm, I still had a lot of things I could do. I sat back looked at everything and said “self, just go to bed, this can wait until tomorrow” and off to bed I went. We won’t mention I watched Parenthood after I went to bed, but I did let go off not finishing a huge project which took a lot of doing.
I will pick up on the project tonight and again tomorrow night, and each night that I have time until it is done, and I am OK with that.
I am done rambling for today. I hope everyone realizes that they too are a FIREWORK.